Here in lies the problem….

I hate my fiancés house. Not just don’t like living there…I truly hate being there. I hate everything about it. I hate the fact that it’s so apparent that a MAN built it because it lacks proper storage. I mean…no linen closets…WTF?!?!?

Another issue is that he's not there. I kinda resent him for that...of course i'll never tell him that. He's away on business and it's not his fault..but I'm entitled to my feelings dammit!

I’ve thought on more then one occasion of moving back to my house. I’m so uncomfortable there that I have trouble sleeping. Maybe I need the house to be Feng Shui’d. Something has me so irritable there. I can’t get comfortable, relaxed or happy there. I can’t wait to move. I look forward to it everyday!!!!!!

My Humps

I have to confess something…..

I’m addicted to looking at my ass….there I said it…I feel better.

My fiance told me one day “I see you checkin out your butt” and I quickly denied it….i don’t know why. Shame maybe..I mean, why would I be checkin out my own ass…I’ll tell you why…cause it’s a nice one DAMMIT!!

I’m no longer in denial about checkin out my ass in the window as I walk into the building at work. Every now and then I catch a glimpse of it in the mirror when I get out of the shower. I think to myself “damn, that’s a nice ass!” I know I know….but really…it is!!

Due to rules of engagement, I’m unable to post a picture of my ass but you can imagine to melons on the backside..and that’s me. I haven’t achieved my goal of shakin it like Buffy. But, I’m working on it….as we speak…::left cheek..right cheek..dance to the beat::

I write this because I recall going to the doctor one day and her telling me that my weight should be at 135. Now, I am a thick woman. I may have some areas that I need to work on and tone up, however, weight of 135 just doesn’t seem correct for me. My ideal weight for myself is 150. That’s where I want to be because I was there once before. For me, clothes felt better at that weight. Hell, I was in single digits. I was happy w/that size. But Size 14 Is Not Fat Either.

Either way, as I work towards my goal, the only part of my body I fear the most of losing is my ass…cause she’s just so beautiful.

First time here

This is my first time in the blogger land. Outside of Y360 that is...this is REAL blog world. I was a lil scared...then I stumbled on something funny. This is just my first blog. Kind of a tester blog. Get the feel of the area.

The Assimulated Negro has a hilarious blog and something I recommend more people to read.