Resentment!

I think about all the things I've done for him and it makes me cry. I sacrificed a lot and gave up so much thinking we were getting married. But all that blew up in my face that day she contacted me. It made me realize that a proposal means nothing. So what he bought a expensive ring. It didn't keep him faithful! I thought I was doing the right thing when I moved in with him. This was after we got engaged. We were making this life together. But a year after the engagement and still no marriage left some things tense in our relationship. I thought he was stalling when I came to setting a date. So we finally did. Although I didn't want a wedding, I was planning one because he wanted it. I take care of his son while he's gone most of the time with work. I make sure he does his homework, care for him when he is sick and do everything a mother is supposed to do. I didn't take a promotion on my job because my family life was too stressful with all the responsibilities I had. I felt very single but involved. His job didn't allow me a lot of flexibility at work. I couldn't work the late hours the promotion would have required. So being supportive to him and his career, I turned it down. Now, of course, I regret it. I hate that I have up so much to be with a man that would disrespect me in such a way. While this affair was going on, I had salvation army pick up MY furniture. I gutted MY house to prepare it for sale. I gave up a lot of my belongs to make this move with him. And this slapped me in my face! Resentment is what I feel. If you've heard that song, you know what I'm talking about.