So it's been a while....

.....and I hadn't posted anything. As this is my secret blog, other life projects got in the way and I forgot my password. I finally figured it out...YAH.. cause i have personal life shit going on and need to vent. Some things I just can't tell friends or family, so it's easier to tell anonymous people....lol

So, first things first... I was right! And I didn't go looking for it. It happened in my lap. The other woman contacted me, while we were shopping for places to have our wedding which happened to be the weekend before my birthday. Go figure. She started sending me text messages to my phone. How did she get my number...I have no clue. I mean, of course I have a clue, but idiot won't admit to shit so who's to say. This whole situation boils down to, 'Follow your intuitions'. My intuitions told me that something wasn't right but I didn't listen. The truth finally came out when I had to show him evidence after the conversation with the girl. He admitted to a online affair and it never became physical. LOL and I'm Elmor Fudd. How else would she get my CELL PHONE NUMBER?

This obviously ended any wedding plans and the engagement. Now we're at a point of 'we don't know what to do' or it's better put as 'i don't know what to do'. Sure leaving is the first answer anyone tells you to do. However, it's always a hard choice to make when you have hope that things could change. Also, we have children involved and time invested.

So do I really want to give up? That's the question