2 weeks later

It's been about 2 weeks since I left him. I'm back in my house now. A few thousand dollars later, it's livable. I'm still missing some key components like a bed for my daughter, living room set, dining chairs, etc... but I'm back in my own place. It's somewhat bittersweet to be here. When I moved, we were getting married. We were going to sell this place and begin life together as husband and wife. Now after over a year of living together, I'm back where I started. It's like winning the lotto but later finding out you owe back taxes. Makes you want to say DAMN!!

In the past 2 weeks, he has apologized more than anything. Why won't they do this when they have it!?!?!? I'm upset and happy at the same time. If only he would have started being humble sooner maybe I would have never moved. But he allowed his ego/pride/dumbassness interfere with what he really wanted. Allegedly, now he understands this. But, I'm still skeptical. Of course I love him, but look what I had to go thru just to get him to realize what has happened.

We had a great relationship, so i thought, til she started contacting me. We didn't argue, fight, etc. We got along great, he was my best friend. Of course we had usual relationship issues, but who doesn't. But, once this happened, the trust was broken. My faith in our relationship was tainted by all the thoughts of what happened. But, I still tried to work it out. I tried to fight thru what I was feeling for the sake of our relationship. Not once did i reject him emotionally for what he had done.

But, when he assumed I was cheating (no proof!!) he rejected me so bad that my heart broke again. I couldn't believe how he was treating me. Me..of all people. I take care of HIS son. I am the sole everything to his child and he's treating me so horribly.

Now he's constantly apologizing. Realizing the error of his ways. Professing his undying love for me and the kids. Saying he misses us. I say to him...I'm not moving til I am married and we were to move to a home we purchased together. Never will I allow anyone to live with me or me with them. I gave up my belongings, convenient location and free time to move with him. I don't feel like he respected that enough to not do what he did.

If you want me, it's an up hill battle up a steep mountain.